Written by Jacqueline Davieau ©
E2E Weekly Blogger - Every Sunday
The number one question that people ask me, is how I connect to my son in Heaven. Please let me be the first one to tell you, that I am not someone special, or a chosen one. This is an ability that we all have. Heaven is our true home, a place that we all vaguely remember. Maybe we have seen it in a dream, or felt it in a moment of bliss, either way it is a part of our lives. It is where we came from and where we shall return. For many years I longed to reach my Son’s spirit on demand, however that is not how it works. I would get so depressed when I could not reach him. Where did he go? Does my son not miss me? I was asking all the wrong questions; but more importantly I was feeling all the wrong emotions. How did I expect to go to a place of pure beauty and love, when my attitude was not in a beautiful and loving state of mind?
Heaven is not only a place where our souls go when we die, but also an emotional state of unconditional love. No negative emotions exist there, we leave all of that at the pearly gates so to speak. It took me many years to understand this concept, but my son was able to clear it up for me in one conversation. Since my son passed away he has been my number one spiritual teacher, giving me the most profound guidance and inspiration. I would like to share an experience with you all, one on how to connect to your loved ones in Heaven. I genuinely believe that my son’s words will fill you with a newfound hope and understanding. I hope that you enjoy this experience as much as I did.
The voices are clearer for me to hear now. If the average person would say that to you, you would advise them to seek the help of a professional. For myself it has become the norm. Talking to the spiritual realm is tangible for us all, and I have spent the last five years working diligently on the gift. It is actually a birthright to us all, a gift that most of us have just not accepted yet. There are many of us awakening at this very moment to the gift, and it is life changing. It is March here in Ohio and the weather is just starting to break. Winter always seems to last forever, and cabin fever always sets in by this time of the year for me. It was Tuesday and lunchtime at work. Instead of grabbing something to eat, I wanted to go down to the park that Mario always went fishing. When I am here, I feel incredibly close to him. He spent many hours down on those trails with his friends over the years so it makes sense that he would still like to visit here. I put some earbuds in and put soft meditation music on, soon it became a walking meditation.
My body was moving but my mind was at complete peace. Being here at this park is bittersweet for me. I know how much Mario enjoyed it down here so that makes me feel close to him, but it also brings tears to my eyes because I miss him so much. My heart breaks for all of the goals that he made, his bond with his brothers and family, his friends, and his career he was only one semester away from achieving.
I often question why God would take someone with such potential away from the world so soon. WE NEED HIM! Negative emotions never work when you want to connect with spirits. I kindly reminded myself of that. I began to show gratitude for the years I had with my son.
“Thank you God, for allowing me to be his mother. Thank you for allowing him to be the best big brother in the world. Thank you for being a wonderful grandson and nephew to my family. Thank you for being a friend that anyone would be proud to have.”
By the time I had finished my apology to God, I found myself at the bridge where Mario use to fish near. I decided to stop and just watch the water flow down the river. Part of it was still frozen so big chunks of ice were colliding. It was beautiful. I always feel closer to God in nature, there is a natural life force energy in the air.
“I miss you Mario, I really miss you and so does everyone else.” I spoke the words out loud to myself.
“Mom, I am right here next to you.”
I could hear his voice clear as day. As if he were standing directly in front of my face. Although I could not see him, his presence was powerful, and I had no doubt in my mind that he was with me.
“Mom I had to go to Heaven first so our work would make an impact. People are accustomed to losing their parents, that is natural. But the loss of a child is a different story. This was our plan before we came into this lifetime. I am so sorry that you are in emotional pain on a daily basis, but it had to be this way. With me here and you there we are able to help so many people. We have already helped more people than you can even imagine. Had the roles been reversed and I was the one telling this story it would not have had the same impact. Trust me that I am always with you.”
Mario and I have had this conversation many times, actually countless times but I still miss him dearly. We do have an extraordinarily strong bond and I am grateful for that, but a mother needs to hug her child and tell him that she loves him. The majority of you reading this story can agree with how I feel.
"Mario, people always ask me how they can have the same relationship as we do with their loved ones. I know everyone can do it, and I always tell them to believe in the fact that they can, but what else do I need to tell them? I feel like something is missing.”